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I am at a place in my life where I have no clue where I am, where I am heading to, and whats driving me... this is one of those times, where you feel a million voices rambling inside your head, so much so that it eventually becomes a constant droning buzz of absolute nothing. Till you plead for those few moments of silence, of stillness, a pause, but it doesn't. It just keeps getting heavier and heavier until its difficult to even lift up your head and smile.
There are moments I begin to learn to live with it, but the deck of cards comes crashing down at the first opportunity it gets.
This is one of those times, where I wish I had a remote control to fast forward my life to the good times and be glad that the bad times are over. you know, the movie.
I am waiting for a million answers to come to me with a wanting-to-pee urgency. Patience doesn't seem to be on my side anymore.
Just hope I get there before I fall apart...

So I am back after the New Year... wishing... like everyone else... that this year might bring some change into my life. Get up in the morning, take care of essentials, have breakfast, drive to office, do the stuff that you do, drive back, cook, get really tired, watch TV and doze off to get up in the morning again... (The schedule might have minor changes for the 'nuptially' committed but the essence is pretty much the same). I am pretty sure there is a lot more to life than this...
And I am equally determined to find out what that is…

You see when I was a kid, I used to imagine that my life is a movie and that someone or the other is watching it at any given time. So I used to make it a point to be in the character as much as one can possibly be. There were times I actually used to say things out aloud that were going on in my mind, for the sake of my most sincere and inquisitive spectators, because God forbid, they should lose track of the drama…

That’s a useful experience though. If I become that spectator today and watch my life over again, there is a good chance I might be able to figure out where I left that behind and more importantly… what it was!!

Words.....

Ever wondered how words can create magic, how statements can mesmerize, how expressions can fascinate. Well since you are here reading a blog- I am pretty sure you have. An action might speak more than a thousand words, but an expression can surely be the most beautiful instrument to express a million emotions.

I believe that words are stimuli to our imaginations- stories, conversations, discussions, poetry, songs, sweet nothings, whatever form they might be in- they constantly feed our schools of thought to bring about sometimes meaningful, sometimes not so meaningful reactions. Very tactfully, intentionally, and appropriately chosen words, can trigger reactions that would make no sense to a person outside of the conversation. It can make you want to say things, do things, believe in things which you would never imagine you could come up with.

They can be the greatest turn on-s and of course obviously the greatest turn offs as well. Imagine how difficult would it be to swear in the absence of words. I think all I have been trying to do in this blog is prove a rather obvious point. I know. Probably I can sum the entire thing by saying, a witty stimulating conversation – a wicked mind game, is where the heart finds it fantasy.

Here it is.....

I am positive that there are thousands of people aspiring to begin their personal blogs every day. I am also positive that a few hundred of them even reach as far as creating blogging profiles for them. And then ensues a rather blank time window which more often than not consists of staring at a crisp, fresh new post window, wondering what to write about. Yes, this obvious thought is a direct output of the very same blank time window. But I am determined enough to push my way past the virgin blankness, and create resplendent imagery, log delectable memories, and share them both with my fellow star gazers!!



So here it is.....