Think!! Think!!

I was watching a video on youtube yesterday. It was actually a bit from one of the stand up acts of Russell Peters. It was called women are thinkers. He says that there are actually a few times in a day when a man's mind is absolutely blank, BLANK!! as in nothing happening there, nothing going through, no nerve endings firing, on rather as Peters put it, "At most a screen saver".
On the other hand, women are constantly thinking, there are dozens of things running through their minds at any given time. Their minds are never at rest. And then he goes to establish what happens when these two different kinds of creatures try to co exist. It's hilarious. But in all seriousness... well, he is right!
If we ever sit down and count the number of things that are running through our minds, simultaneously, or rather try to jot them down on a notepad, we will be surprised we are not insane yet! There are important things, there are the not-so-important things, and then there are completely unimportant things, but they are there, right there all in the mind. Lets just say, we haven't stopped thinking about things, ever since we realized we could think, probably even before that!
Do you ever have that feeling where you just want to sit, close your eyes, put your index finger on your temples, make little circles there, and just breathe....Yes! that feeling. That's probably your brain saying, BUZZZZZZ!!! ZZZ!!! ZZZ!!! Enough!
'Gimme a break! Will you!'
I have that feeling a lot. Sometimes I feel if I could just probably somehow detach my brain and keep in it cold storage for sometime, you know, let it cool off a bit, relax and rejuvenate, and then attach it back, what a lovely feeling would that be!
I bet my mind would go "hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" rather than "BUZZZZZZZZZ". I would hear acoustic flutes rather than the steel drums pounding away in my head.
Yes I know that sounds utterly stupid, but I am open to ideas! All ideas, sensible or otherwise, you never know what might work! So if anybody out there got any bright light bulbs hanging over their heads, kindly share!! Seriously! I wouldn't mind only a screen saver running through my brain, every once in a while...

P.S. You can watch the video here:
Laugh your asses off!

Little grains of delight...

Was listening to the radio, while driving back from work yesterday, something I rarely do, because hopping across stations trying the filter out songs, no wait, good songs, from the chatter, kind of gets the better of me. 1.. blah blah blah, (switch) 2... blah blah blah, (switch) 3.. blah blah blah, most irritatingly all the stations have to suddenly talk at the same time. And whats worse, there is this one really run down, completely over done song, which to my amusement, is playing on three different stations at the same time. Rats!!
Well anyway, a friend borrowed all of my cds to dump on her system, and so there I was, wrestling away with the music unit of my car, desperate to find something hear-able.
I am not quite familiar with the various shows running on various stations, (quite frankly they all sound really really similar) but to my delight I found a station which was playing old Dev Anand, Jitendra, Shammi Kapoor songs. Oh! What a delight to the ears. My irritability towards the radio suddenly transformed into a playful singalong session with an occasional shimmy here and there. And boy was it enlivening!!
I was sitting there thinking, much after I had rather quite successfully entertained the people in the adjacent cars, at almost all the traffic lights, how tiny unexpected surprises or rather changes from the ordinary, actually brighten up your day. You could be feeling really low a certain morning, and a school bus driving up beside you with children in the back waving frantically, screaming, "bye bye.. bye bye", brings a smile to your face.
I am not quite sure why I chose to write about my experience last evening, probably because I realized that it never hurts to reiterate the fact that in anticipation of big things and big events in life, we often do not see the little grains of delight that are all around us. Sometimes they are really insignificant to notice, or we are too preoccupied to acknowledge, sometimes we are just too burnt out to give it thought, but sometimes they are just the things required to take that dull, mundane, bummed out mood of yours and turn it around ... :)

Life's Good

I feel good today. Can't really put a finger on why I feel so. Could be because I had a good night sleep last night, or that I made a new friend, the Coffee Cup, or probably just the fact that troughs and crests in life follow alternately. Yesterday was most definitely a trough, and a big one at that. But that's over.. yayy!
Drove alone to office, through the busy roads of Delhi, and whats the first thing I did, as soon as I switched on my system- I read the blogs. Read that people all around me have problems, issues, views, stories to share, experiences to narrate, and suddenly I didn't feel lonely anymore. This feeling that I can reach out to anyone, anytime, is suddenly priceless. Thank God for Internet, blogging, and of course coffee.. :)
I have a long day ahead of me, that involves meetings, phone calls, lots of 'chai' and coffee, a lot of 'staring-at-the-screen', arguments-with-boss, political reconciliations, some whining (of course! its a biological necessity for me!), a quick power nap, if I can steal one :), and a lot of other ad-hoc nonsense, that I don't even want to think about. But I am sure, my day would end in another quick round of glancing and commenting through more blogs, more views, more experiences, more friends hopefully, and the day wouldn't be all that bad after that.
So hey... Life's good!

????

I am at a place in my life where I have no clue where I am, where I am heading to, and whats driving me... this is one of those times, where you feel a million voices rambling inside your head, so much so that it eventually becomes a constant droning buzz of absolute nothing. Till you plead for those few moments of silence, of stillness, a pause, but it doesn't. It just keeps getting heavier and heavier until its difficult to even lift up your head and smile.
There are moments I begin to learn to live with it, but the deck of cards comes crashing down at the first opportunity it gets.
This is one of those times, where I wish I had a remote control to fast forward my life to the good times and be glad that the bad times are over. you know, the movie.
I am waiting for a million answers to come to me with a wanting-to-pee urgency. Patience doesn't seem to be on my side anymore.
Just hope I get there before I fall apart...